Monday, July 21, 2008

Picture Perfect?

Last night, Chris and I were looking at pictures Joy uploaded to Phanfare. There were so many, and it was a lot of fun to take a peek into our past.

Then I saw this picture, and it made me depressed. It was taken only a few years ago at Easter. I am the one in front in pink. The sad thing is, I don't look a thing like this anymore. I had an "Ah-ha!" moment, but a sad one. I have really let myself go.

I stopped bleaching my hair blond, but the biggest difference is how much weight I have gained. I worked so hard to get where I was in this picture, and I can't believe how I have lost focus. Here is my list of excuses:

-My gym closed, and I just didn't like 24 Hour Fitness as much, so I stopped going.
-Years of dealing with infertility made me depressed. I felt better when I ate.
-IVF drugs make you gain about 12 pounds, on average.
-Dibs Bite Sized Ice Cream Snacks were my reward after the Progesterone in Oil shots.
-I got pregnant with Evie.
-Due to Evie's milk and soy protein intolerance, I had to cut all dairy and soy from my diet. Reading food labels was hard enough. I was not about to count calories.

The excuses above were a crutch to get complacent and lazy. I am D-O-N-E with them!

It's not all about how I look, although that is a big factor. I also want to feel healthier and to set a good example for my daughter. So today I am getting serious about eating better and exercising. I have a wedding to attend September 12th, and my goal is to lose 10 pounds by then.


Anna Grace`s Jie Jie said...

Love the pix!

Kelsey said...

I love the photo it is awesome!

Jen @ I should be cleaning said...

Maybe we can inspire eachother -- I know EXACTLY how you feel.

P.S. But, I think I like the dark hair better!

Stephanie Sanders said...

In the words of Xtina, "You are beautiful, no matter what they say, and words can't bring you down..."

So girlfriend, leave the pity party at the door and look at all of the beauty that surrounds you--including yourself.

You are an amazing woman who has accomplished and overcome so much in your life, please don't let a little thing like weight stand in the way of seeing your true beauty. Because to me, my friend, you are stunning. And I would guess your daughter and hubby would agree.

Peace & Love,

SarahHub said...

Aw, shucks, Stephanie

Jackie @ Our Moments Our Memories said...

Hi there! Saw your comment over at 5 Min. for Mom and thought I'd drop by. :)

First off, love your sugar cookie recipe. If you say it's the best, then I am definitely going to be trying them this Christmas.

I am sooo with you on the weight thing. I looked in the mirror in June and thought, What happened here?? So I have been TRYING to do better, and have dropped 8 lbs. so far. You can do it! :) I get frustrated because it doesn't come off faster, but I have to be happy with the little bit that does. Don't beat yourself up too badly.

Anyway, I'll be back to visit. :)

Shari Baby said...

sarah, i know it's not the same. but i have gained 20 lbs, or more, since our wedding day! grrr! you do look great in that pic. i look skinnier there too. starting in october i'm going on a diet. i have too much fun eating. i love it love it.