Last night, Chris and I were looking at pictures Joy uploaded to Phanfare. There were so many, and it was a lot of fun to take a peek into our past.
Then I saw this picture, and it made me depressed. It was taken only a few years ago at Easter. I am the one in front in pink. The sad thing is, I don't look a thing like this anymore. I had an "Ah-ha!" moment, but a sad one. I have really let myself go.
I stopped bleaching my hair blond, but the biggest difference is how much weight I have gained. I worked so hard to get where I was in this picture, and I can't believe how I have lost focus. Here is my list of excuses:
-My gym closed, and I just didn't like 24 Hour Fitness as much, so I stopped going. -Years of dealing with infertility made me depressed. I felt better when I ate. -IVF drugs make you gain about 12 pounds, on average. -Dibs Bite Sized Ice Cream Snacks were my reward after the Progesterone in Oil shots. -I got pregnant with Evie. -Due to Evie's milk and soy protein intolerance, I had to cut all dairy and soy from my diet. Reading food labels was hard enough. I was not about to count calories.
The excuses above were a crutch to get complacent and lazy. I am D-O-N-E with them!
It's not all about how I look, although that is a big factor. I also want to feel healthier and to set a good example for my daughter. So today I am getting serious about eating better and exercising. I have a wedding to attend September 12th, and my goal is to lose 10 pounds by then.
I have been married for more than 11 years to my fantastic husband, Chris, and we have two beautiful and energetic children. Evie is 5, and full of spunk and sparkle. Ethan is 2, and has taught me about trains and construction vehicles and Buzz Lightyear - and about sweet boy cuddles.
I strive to be gentle and kind - a reflection of the love Christ has shown to us. I don't always live it perfectly, but I am working towards a life of gratitude, joy, and love!